Carolina Dean
A Modern Witch's Book of Shadows
About Me
Know Thyself
My Earthwalk
My Astrology Profile
My Numerology Profile
My Personal Correspondences
Know Thyself
Know Thyself these words were written ages ago above the door to the Temple of Apollo where the Oracle of Delphi made her famous prophecies, and perhaps these two simple words may be her greatest legacy.
Scholars have interpreted this statement in the scientific sense of the importance of self-analysis. For the practicing Wiccan, this means daily periods of meditation, taking up the practice of divination, beginning a daily journal, and studying one's dreams.
These simple tools will assist you in the great work of knowing yourself, which is important because as you study the craft you will challenge ideas that probably have been ingrained in you since birth. You will be asked to explore alternate paths and to accept that those paths are correct for their respective followers. More importantly, you will have to tread the path of your own truth.
My Earthwalk
 My earthwalk began in the summer of 1973. I was given a name chosen by my parents. However, it wasn't until many years later that I, Carolina Dean, was born or should I say awakened? But I'm jumping ahead of myself here. After my parents divorce, I came to live with my maternal grandparents in a small town in South Carolina , who raised me as their own. I was a shy child, and mainly kept to myself. I grew up with a thirst for all things magickal, having been fascinated by television shows like Bewitched, I Dream of Jeannie, Tales from the Darkside, and Friday the 13th the Series among others. I believed that everything had magick. From the marbles I found in our backyard to the sticks I played with, everything had it's own special power. In the woods near my home, I sought out the elusive Bigfoot and the the Lizard Man (a local legend). My first encounter with real magick, however, occurred in the summer of my sixth year. After my parents divorce, my mother didn't have a car so we had to walk everywhere. I had developed warts all over the back of my hand and my grandmother told me that it was because I let a frog pee on my hand. I don't think that she really believed that, she just told me that because a bunch of us boys were bad about scaring old ladies in the neighborhood with frogs, snakes, and lizards we'd caught.  To get rid of the warts, my mother walked me to a healer's house on one of the back roods leaving out of town. The little old lady performed a ritual to "take off" my warts that entailed her rubbing a penny over them while praying. My mother was then instructed to take me to a public place where I was to give the penny to the first stranger I saw, which we did. Unfortunately, the magic ultimately failed and I had to have the warts painfully burned off, but having the ritual performed over me really awoke something in me and began my interest in pursuing an education in the magickal arts.  Looking back, I always knew that I was different, unfortunately my classmates knew it as well. Because I was perceived as gay, which I am, by my peers, I wasn't particularly popular in school, which only added to my low self esteem and sense of isolation. I felt betrayed by God, because I was taught by the church that homosexuality is a sin and an abomination. I felt that God had no right to punish me for something in which I had no choice. I first came to witchcraft for entirely the wrong reasons. I wanted the boys to like me and I wanted to hurt the people who hurt me. I also thought that by practicing witchcraft that I would be getting back at God for abandoning me.  In those days, there was no internet and so there was very little good information on witchcraft, at least in my small Southern hometown. What few books there were in my local library were those that put forth the misconception that witches are evil. I never went to a point in my witchcraft where I hurt anyone, except myself. However, I did not hurt myself on a physical level, but on an emotional and spiritual one. The void inside me only grew with my hate for the world and for myself.  By the time I entered college, I had developed an interest in learning to read the Tarot, which was inspired by the character of Solitaire in the James Bond motion picture Live and Let Die (1973). The library at my college had an extensive occult section that was much more balanced. Through my interest in Tarot, I found the Craft of the Wise. After a great deal of reading, studying, practical application, and experimentation, I did learn to read the Tarot and eventually learned enough about Wicca to know that it was for me. I initiated myself into the craft in a self-initiation ceremony and adopted a new name to represent my newly chosen reality, and allthough I have had many magickal names in the past two decades, I am currently known as Carolina Dean. I applied the principles of Wicca to my life, and I am a much better person for having done so. The void inside me has been filled with self-acceptance, self-love, and with that has come power. I now see myself as an empowered individual, a far cry from that introverted boy who just wanted to be accepted for who he was. I have come to a place of self-acceptance in my life and have come to know that I have the power to shape the course of my own destiny. Blessed Be, Carolina Dean |
My Astrological Profile
You have a great deal of nervous energy, which you direct towards your need to accomplish and to perfect, putting the whole force of your personality until all that you do. You have sharp senses, often forming quick, accurate opinions about others, which rarely waver. You don't like being questioned, or contradicted. You are a loner, who is often secretive and reserved and often spend a great deal of time alone. However you retain a magnetic ability to attract friends and are often called upon to be a leader or to motivate others.
You have a high intellect, as well as a deep sense of purpose and a need for order and balance. You're often indecisive, due to a need to make the 'perfect' choice---and when you do make a decision, you're still not sure that it was the right one. You are highly intuitive, possible psychic and often have flashes of insight or knowledge. nonetheless, you tend to rationalize and misinterpret your vision. You are insightful, contemplative, and have the desire not only to learn but also to understand. Philosophy, faith, and religion will play a prominent role in your life. You are drawn to unusual beliefs and religious practices. Your desire for solitude and independence often result in episodes of self-absorption.
You are ambitious, yet lack self-confidence and will often change jobs until you find something that suits you. You will do well in a career that allows you to work alone with little to no supervision and one in which will take advantage of your creativity and problem solving skills. you will not take a job simply because it pays well, but because you enjoy what you are doing. However, to you success means both material possessions and true love.
Being in love is an all consuming experience for you. You tend to be involved in unusual or unconventional relationships. You are affectionate, flirtatious, and charming. Sex is often emphasized in your relationships and for you it is always intense and passionate. You are possessive and jealous, and are often emotionally dependent on others. You strive for a high level of closeness with your lover and wish to dominate and possess him wholly. Your desire for such closeness often leads to arguments, and quarrels. For you. love affairs often begin and end quickly.
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I delineated my chart myself using The Only Astrology Book You'll Ever Need by Joanna Martine Woolfolk
My Numerology Profile
My Numerological Profile
Paul Dean Harris Jr.
September 15th, 1973
The Birth Number
Your Birth Number is the sum of all the digits that comprise your date of birth, and it represents your self identity.
09+01+05+1+9+7+3= 35
3+5= 8
The Name Number
| 1 | 2 | 3 | 4 | 5 | 6 | 7 | 8 | 9 |
| A | B | C | D | E | F | G | H | I |
| J | K | L | M | N | O | P | Q | R |
| S | T | U | V | W | X | Y | Z |
The Name Number is the sum of all the digits that comprise your name, and it represents the role you were assigned by you family.
PAUL DEAN HARRIS JR
7133 4515 819991 19= 76
7+6= 13
1+3= 4
In addition, the sum of all the consonants in your name represents how you deal with the outside world.
P L D N H R R S J R
7 3 4 5 8 9 9 1 1 = 56
5+6= 11
1+1= 2
The sum of all the vowels in your name represents your sense of security.
A U E A A I
1 3 5 1 1 9 = 20
2+0=2
The Destiny Number
Your Destiny Number is the sum of your Name Number and your Birth Number and gives an indication of your true will
8+4= 12
1+2= 3
Basic Meanings of the Numbers
One- Driven, independent, free thinkers, stubborn. At times, egocentric, energetic, impulsive.
Two- Balanced, emotional, think with their hearts. Can be sensitive. Artistic. Dependent. Social and have a fear of being alone.
Three- Very outgoing, creative, they think outside the norms of society, do not accept criticism well, enjoy pushing the boundaries of society and experimental in all aspects of their life.
Four-Grounded and stable. Enjoys their comfort zone. Errs on the side of caution. Very dependable, shy, quiet, meek, intelligent, but has at times difficulty applying it.
Five- Likes change and variety. Creative but frustrated. Attention to detail. Have a lot of difficulties in life and often feels sorry fro themselves. Overwhelmed, pessimistic, take on too much responsibility.
Six- Self Confident, over achiever, introverted, loner, lover of home and animals. Has a hard time in crowds. Moody at times. Possessive. Hardheaded, Free hearted.
Seven- Like change, loves chaos. Works well without structure, intelligent but emotions often overwhelm them. Indecisive. Moody, flighty, unpredictable and enjoy being center of attention.
Eight- Creative. Determined. Energetic. Need Order, are often activist. Persistent needs to be in control of all situations, domineering to a fault.
Nine- Mystical, idealist, philosopher, and self-sacrificing to a fault. Unrealistic towards goals often classified as a dreamer. Insensitive to the needs of the one's closest to them.
My Personal Correspondences
This term refers to those correspondences which resonate with us on a deeply personal level, and which empowers us more than any other correspondence.
| Correspondence | Choice |
| Color(s) | Green and Blue |
| Number(s) | 8 and 5 |
| Herb(s) | Lavender and Sandlewood |
| Stone(s) | Sapphire and Amethyst |
| Incense | Sandlewood |
| Tool | The Wand |
| Rune | Lagu |
| Tarot Card | The Hanged Man |
| Day | Monday |
| Moon Phase | Full |
| Time of Day | Late Evening |
| Planet | Mercury |
| Animal | Energy |
| Season | Autumn |
| Direction(s) | North, East |
| Element(s) | Earth, Water |
| Metal | Silver |
Your Worksbook of Shadows
EXERCISES:
- In order to learn more about yourself and how the choices you have made have led you to be where you are today, write your own autobiography.
- Go to Astrolabe and enter your birth data, then print out your Astrological Chart. Familiarize yourself with your Sun Sign, Moon Sign, Rising Sign, and determine in which Sign AND House the ten planets in our solar system occupy in your chart. Later, in the chapter on Divination, you will learn a method of delineating, or interpreting, your Astrological Chart.
- Using the method described above, determine your Birth Number. Read over the Basic Meanings of the Numbers and write in your journal what you think this number says about you.
- Using the method described above, determine your the sum of all the digits in your name, the sum of all the consonants, and the sum of all the vowels. Record these numbers in your journal (show your math) and upon reviewing the Basic Meaning of the Numbers, write what you think this says about you and your life.
- Determine your Destiny Number, write this number in your journal and record what you think this number says about you.
- Begin a list of Personal Correspondences. You do not have to complete the list at this time. However, you should begin to explore what correspondences resonate with you.
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